ISIS monthly Q&A of december 2011- text version

Channeled by Kata Szenasi on the 8th december 2011.

ISIS: I am Isis, from the Depths of the Blue. I was waiting to come to You this special moment, this special month, the last month of this year of 2011.
This year has been pivotal. This year has been very intense, as You have sure noticed it. It has been a year full of challenges, of self discoveries, full of questions and full of answers, full of new beginnings and endings and letting goes. It was your year. The year amongst the last years that was the most about Yourselves. This year was an invitation to Yourself.
To become that grander You here on earth, to become the divine in a human body in a human life. To become so much more then you have ever expected from your mind, but you have always known from your heart and with your soul. So allow yourself know in that special moment that we share together to embrace every gift that this year has brought to You.
Every gift that You have enjoyed and every gift that was perhaps more difficult at times to live, to experience.
Allow yourself to feel the beauty in those challenging times as well, feel the preciousness, the treasures that were held in this amazing times that You have lived this year. This year was also a preparation for the next Year.

The next year of 2012, that you are all very much waiting for to experience to feel as it will unfold. 2012 will be the next step. 2011 was about You. 2012 will be about You in the world. About You and the others, about you and humanity, and you and the Earth. So You will have many opportunities to dance with some beautiful creations, and beautiful creators. Together you will have many opportunities and possibilities to create new adventures, new artworks for yourselves and the world. It will be a very creative Year.
And You will see at the end of 2012 that You have gone beyond everything, that the human in You has experienced in this lifetime. You will be completely reborn. You will be completely changed. And if You would try to remember how it felt when you went to school at the age of 6 or 8, it will be hard to remember, as it will seem to you that it didn’t happened to you, but to someone else. And this will be true.
So with a deep breath I invite You right now, to feel the magic in these special years, in 2011 and 2012. Feel the magic. Feel how each moment helds within a potential for alchemy.
You have the possibility in each moment to alchemize the moment. To filter it to its essence. And then to drink this essence, to nurture you with a wonderful gift.
Each moment has this special ability to bring you joy, amazing gifts, and amazing new adventures, the portentials of those adventures.
So the question is: Are you ready for those adventures? Are you ready to truly let go of those human structures, those human questions of the everyday life, the systems of the everyday life..of those habits, belief systems?
Are You truly ready to live here on Earth as the magician Merlin. Like a Spirit from the other side, being truly magical for those who percieve them from the earthy perspective.
Are You ready to transcend into this new quality of Life, where things will happen very smoothly, very easily in a totally new way. Don’t expect things to come to You lineary, to come to You progressively,like from A I go to B than I go to C. Because this is the human structure, and You will go beyond. In 2012 you will. If You allow, and if You dare to be that wonderful wizard and magician that You truly are. So now I celebrate You in joy and now I share with You, that I am very much with You in this process. I am around You, here on Earth, and I am so glad and so blessed to be here with You again in these times.
I did not expected to have such an opening from people in human form right now, towards this love that we shared in the past. Towards this love that is here with such depths and such purity and so much creativity in it.
So drink it , dears. Drink it in. Drink my essence and drink the essence of joy of creating, joy of becoming who you truly are here on earth. Getting all the support, all the love, all the possibilities and potentials that You wish . Thank You. It’s always a joy to be here with You, to interact with You, to share. So I am ready to share on your questions.
Thank You.

QUESTION1: Dear Isis and Kata,

I have a question regarding my work and the way I make a living. Currently I’m employed by a global company, but I would like to move away from it, and find something that I can do with true passion and commitment.
I’m interested in many things, and have tried a bit of this and that, but for some reason, I still don’t feel that I’ve found the thing that would satisfy me and to which I could completely devote myself.
I feel sort of stuck , so I would be very grateful if you could shed some light on what’s keeping me back. Thank you!

ISIS:  Thank You for Your question, indeed it has been a long time, that change is waiting for You, that a new life is waiting for You. It has been a long time that You were pondering about, and you were thinking about, asking yourself about different potentials and possibilities, buti n a way You always stopped right before making the next step. You were quite confused in your mind, because you are very sensitive, and you allow yourself many times to feel into different dimensions, different peoples and consciousnesses that are around you, so sometimes you are connected to one part and another time to a different parts. And so you channel those parts, and then you become confused.
That is the way it is, if one doesn’t have a true home within, in its own self. Yes, it is your key, dear One, to your future, to your present moment and to your past as well, because you have some past issues as well to release in the next few months, max. one year.
Yes, you have. And You know this. They will come to you, the more you allow, they will be more present, they will pas trough you more easily in order to be cleaned once and for all.
And about your present and future I can only say, that your question begins with You. Yo the more You allow yourself to be in love with You, with Your self, to be in touch with your self on a very feeling based level. the confortable you will get with your life, and you will have more possibilities and abilities to truly feel into what is the best for You.
Because when you don’t have a Home in You, You don’t have  a room for Yourself, a safe room within you. A sacred safe room within. Where it truly feels Home, comfort and security.
You are constantly switching between your aspects, between outside energies, mass consciousness, ideas and thoughts, your fears, your dark parts, and eventually sometimes your soul. So it is like a big party that is going on in You and You can not discern which is what and who is talking to you right now. It is very difficult to choose from this standpoint.

So I invite You right now, to feel this space in You, this Home in You, because there is a home within You, you try to turn your back on it, but I invite You now as we are together to feel it with Your deep breath, the spacial hime that is waiting for You. This wonderful special home within You.
In Your core there is a Room, that is waiting for You. A room with light walls, with warm, solid but gentle walls, that radiate support, care love and nurturing to You. I know these are words, but right now in this safe space that we are in, you are able to connect with this room in You.

And Yes, you can feel resistance, you can feel parts of You that are resisting to recognize this room, to notice this room, where it is. The fact that it is here, it is real and true that is Yours. But allow yourself to go deaper, and to feel this room that is so willing to host You. So willing to give You. So willing to nurture You and wrap You in love and care. So breathe deaply and FEEL this room, and allow yourself to breathe yourself into this room, to breathe this room right around you. Breathe deaply, and feel …feeel the warmth, the love feel the compassion and the total accaptance of who You are and who You have ever been.

Yes. Yes breathe deeply. Breathe the fragrance of this room, the texture of this room, the air, the warmth…everything that is in this room, that wants to support You and wants to take care of You, and when You allow yourself to be in this room daily..to spend some time each day in this room.

And at the beginning you might just spend a few minutes there and you will see, that You will love it, and You will want to be longer there and once you will be there regularry, constantly, you will feel that something changed within You. That You know who You are and what You want, and You know where You are at.
You will know that You have a body, and you are here by a simple and free choice, that you want to be here, that you want to express yourself, that you want to share your gifts with the world, and with everyone who wishes to recieve them.

Yes. And at that point You will know what is your passion in that moment. Because it will be changing constantly. But there will be some attributes and qualities that you would prefer to others, they will be specific to You. So You will see and you will feel, what attracts you, what invites you, I am sure. But trust, first and foremost this Home within You, and allow yourself to be in it, to be with it, to discover it for You each day. In every situation, even when you are at your working office, being quite confused beacuse you feel many energies around you, and you no longer feel your own stability, so that is a great moment to invite this Home in You. To invite Yourself Home. Yes. That will be a great discovery for you.

At first you might have some struggle with it, but then something will shift and you will be amazed. Thank You! Keep breathing and feeling what You feel within about the people around you, the things in your life, and about this home, waiting for You to host you for 24/7 and even beyond. Thank You!

QUESTION2: Dear Isis. Why on earth did I sell my quaint, cozy townhouse and buy this shack out in what seems like the middle of nowhere where the winds howl so fierce and I feel so isolated? Thank you.

ISIS: This is a great question! You should ask yourself about what you wanted to do with this house in this area. What did you not liked in the previous house? Yes, you feel many things, but like the person who asked the previous question, you also have difficulties to discern where are those feelings coming from. Are they yours, or are they coming from others, or from the Earth, or from global consciousness, yes it is difficult for you to feel those. Buti t is also difficult because you tend to not really choose from your heart but from your mind. And because when you have a feeling that you should change something you don’t have the patience to go within to have  a journey with this question in you, to have a journey with this idea, this inspiration. So I would like to invite you, the next time that you will feel something, an intuition, a fresh idea, something new coming to your mind saying go there, buy this, or change that, something that may be more important then just buying a piece of bread or which bottle buy in the supermarket, so in a grander question – which is obviously not truly grander than other ones, but you might have less resistence to consider those question a little bit longer then you use to do it with the other questions- so next time I invite You to ask yourself the question: where is this wish of change, letting go, of buying, etc coming from.

And allow yourself to breathe a little bit, you know the breathing gets you out of your mind, the breathing gets you in a flow. So even if you feel that you are stuck in you life, and you start breathing, that will bring a shift in your energy field , in your consciousness, even if you don’t  notice it, but something will happen.
Maybe the result, the concrete manifestation of this shift will only come to you later. But the shift will happen. So I invite you next time to just breathe a little bit, and allow yourself to feel, what lies beyond your question? What is the reason that you ask it? What is Your Soul wanting to tell You trough this new question?
With the wish to recieve an answer…with the wish to get a clear answer, you will get it. Allow this answer to come to You in a new way. Because usually what you do is asking other people about the same topic, asking their minds, their stories.
Then from a very sudden choice you tend to do something very quickly, and choose very quickly and then it is like you don’t know how did you get there. Like it wouldn’t have been your own choice. And it is true, it wasn’t. You just surrendered to something.
So I invite you to feel into these things and the next day, no matter what was there from the previous day, allow yourself to breathe again, and to recieve the answer. To just recieve. Dont’t force yourself. You don’t need to do any effort, you don’t need to strive for it, just allow yourself to recieve it.
And maybe, just as you do this excercise you will feel something, you will hear something within, but it is also very possible that during your day you will meet someone who will meet someone who will answer this question for you, just out of the blue!
So allow yourself to ask for help, support, understanding, wisdom, intuition and inspiration. And then, allow yourself to recieve it. It is that simple. You are just not used to ask for help and support.
And so, truly in You your mind asks people, what they meen, what would they do, but it is not the same thing. Are you able to recieve true help, true support that would simplify your life. Are you truly ready to recieve abundance? Yes you have big issues with it. Are you truly recieve a bunch of new friends? Not really. Because you don’t know safely who you are. The part of the reason that you went away of your previois house was that you wanted to discover who you are. That you wanted to let go all the clichés, all the outside energies that you were carrying to discover who you are. But I will tell You something, there comes a point, when you just act, you just do, you just LOVE what you do, with your heart, and by doing so, you will feel the safe feeling in you, this Home within.
So together with all these parts of you, that are waiting to get integrated, that are waiting to be welcomed in one House, in a true Home, I invite you to take a deep breathe of Love for Yourself.
And allow yourself to be in this moment, and feel that from this moment you can choose whatever you want for the next moment to be experienced by You. So if You don’t like something in Your Life, there is no need to stay in those situations that you do not like.There is no need to do efforts, to seem strong, to proove yourself that you are strong to survive in those situations that are not nourrishing you. So now the question is, what would the perfect place for you to be your Home?
What would you love to have around you? How would you love to have it to support you? To nurture You. Please define it, please discover it within. Please play with idea, play with the creation and the imagination and playfulness to truly discover what would be a true home be like for you? And you will feel, by experiencing this journey, this searching phase, this quest for your true home, you will realize that it is also about this inner journey, to your inner center. And you will do this, paralelly, and you will find your perfect home when you will be able to sit in your body, to feel the warmth of it, allowing yourself to feel that human life can be very very full, nurrishing and joyful. Rich, joyful, abundant, comfy, cozy …and amazing.

So, yes… we went trough many parts of yourself right now, but the essential is, that you truly choose life for You. The life that you deserve with all that you are, the life that reflects you with all that you are. A magnificient life, a magnificient home that will not isolate you from the others, but will nurture you in a way, that if you so choose, you will be able to share with and to recieve from others in love, whenever you may so choose.
So yes, it is a new phase in your life. After a chaotic time it would be time to get you a true home, that is truly supportive for all parts that you have.  So that you can truly live, instead of being stuck in a quality. Even if it is a good quality, but stuck will not support you. You need something that is flowing, that is growing and expending constantly, as your soul wishes to grow and expand constantly.
So yes, allow yourself to find the perfect home for You. And to find the perfect place within for you, the courageous one that wanted to live in those amazing times on Earth. Not to proove that it can, but to shine her magnificence to the whole Universe and your own Self, because of your own joy. Thank You.

QUESTION3: I’m distracted so often in so subtle ways, that I end up the next morning: oh, I wanted to do that … I tend to forget what I really want, what I choose to do!

Filling up the day is difficult. I feel kind of ‘what now’ and not really happy or satisfied, not really connected with the soul. I know it is the mind and I breathe and I feel no progress. I really want to have more clarity. What is the case here, what is playing out in my life to prevent me to do the things I want to do and to stay with my inner voice, to feel my soul. I want to realize my passions. I end up doing nothing and a lot would say: great. But it is frustrating, and not doing the nothing that is meant, but rather just doing things I have to do and no time to what I chose.  ggrrrrrrr ….

ISIS: Dear One, thank You for Your question. It has been a long time that we haven’t met, that you have turned your back to this love. This love that embraces you totally as you are. Yes, you had difficult times in previous lives, yes. Those were wounds when you did not felt any compassion for yourself but worst, you felt like the whole world was against you. And yes,  several times you have been a victim of abuse, of love, love that was destroying you, love that was eating you, love that was totally bound you and put you in a prison, in a cave, in a dark abyss, where you felt so desperate, and so lost that you still carry those attributes within you. Yes, because you have some aspects that were so traumatized and wounded in those 2-3 lives of your past, espescially about the Christ time and later about year 1000, that you could not reconnect with your light and with your love with ease, they are still there within you.
So dear one I invite you know to just feel this love, coming from me, ISIS. And yes, we had a connection you and me.
And in this wonderful sacred space that we create right now, I invite you to allow yourself to trust me, to trust this pure love, to remember our connection. To remember that love that we shared, You and I, and with others. Because this love is in You. Within You it is still there, you might move away from it, you might be scarred by it, you might not trust it, but it is there. So now, as we breathe together,allow yourself to open up, and feel this endless love and compassion that is there for you, that pours out to you, this fontain of love….with each drop of this love, that wants you gently, gently caress you, gently wash you..Wash this fear away, wash this untrust away, this uncertainty, this doubt: Can I trust this love again?
Yes, you can feel into those untrusting aspects of You, they are your gardians, they were meant to protect you to have another traumatic life, to have another trauma, that would kill you again, beacause it has been the case before. Love has killed you.

(Pause-Breathing)
But allow yourself to feel this love. This love that can not be killed. This love that is here, that is ready to be embraced and recieved. This love that wants to gently embrace you, love you, guide you trough this challenging process of getting you to trust again. Trust enough to open up to your passion, to open up to this love again.

I will tell you one thing. Your passion, your biggest passion is your love to share. Your precious love, with yourself, with your aspects and with others. But you have restricted, your aspects have restricted this precious love, this precious sharing. And it will begin, will start with your opening towards yourself, to recieve more and more each day, of that love. That you feel now. And with each breath you will feel more and more! More and More! Growing, glowing, expanding within, expanding everywhere! Yes! Allow yourself to recieve this love again. To be wrapped in this love again. This love has never betrayed you. This love has never lied to You, this love has never killed you. This is the supreme, the highest love that has ever been felt, experienced in creation,and you carry it within. In your seed, in your essence. It is your essence, it is your passion. Allow yourself to remember that, and to breathe with it, let that grow within with each day. So that those fearful aspects can accept that the protecting service is done, that the recieveing process has started. That you are now ready to truly recieve, and as you recieve you will be ready to truly give from your HEART the precious love that you wish to share from your soul and not from your mind. Thank You for your bold question. And allow yourself to be supported by all the angels around you, by me ISIS. Yes, you can allow yourself to open up more to this divine goddess energy.
And if you notice that you are afraid of it in some levels, just play with it, and it will be more familiar to you with each day. Because this precious love that you have wants to flow, wants to express, wants to play, wants to enrich so many experiences here on earth. Thank You.

QUESTION4: A year ago my treasured home was sold and ever since then I have been living in a share house with people who have very different lifestyles and values to myself. I know living here hasn’t done me any good and it is important for me to move somewhere else. There is a little house I know of for rent that I am very keen on moving into. My mum says she thinks the rent is too hgih for me, but I feel it is somehow right in my heart. What do you think?

ISIS: I am so glad for Your question dear One, because it helps me to bring this whole session that we have today into a wonderful, wonderful circle. Yes! We began with a beautiful symbol of having a Home in You, and now we will end with this wonderful symbol of having a Home for You. So yes, allow yourself to find the perfect, the ideal home that supports you that nurtures you.
A home for You, dear Masters it is not just a space where you can host your physical body on a practical level, a home is much more then this! Allow yourself to truly have a home that nurtures you that helps you to create the most wonderful potentials for your Earth life and beyond. Allow yourself to be inspired by your home, to be nurtured, supported by your home.
Allow yourself to find a home that lovey you, that gives you each day. A home, that is a living a home, that is vibrant, having the vital energy, that is pulsing each day, and brings you endless joy. A hause that helps You to be very grounded in this earthy life as well. You are aware, or becoming aware more and more with each month of your own self working on different levels and different dimensions. But one of the most important thing for you , in this lifetime is, that you have a beautiful nurturing home to host you, to ground you, to nourrish you. And it doesn’t mean that you have to have a home for twenty years, you can change those homes whenever you feel like, but everytime you choose a new home choose it the way, that it can truly add to your life, it can truly be a base for your life. A ground level, so that you can truly build on it your wonderful inspired creations.
So, yes, if You feel like, when you breathe a bit, even close your eyes, in the evening, at night just before going to sleep, lying in your bed, allow yourself to feel into that house that you wish to rent. Feel if this house is for you? What do You feel coming from this house? What is that you like in it?
Does it truly nurture you, or do you simply follow an aspect in you that wants to have this house but the other parts of yourself and your main part, your soul part will not like it?
If you allow yourself to play with your imagination, to feel into that house. To feel into the life that you could have in that house, you will feel if it is the perfect house right now for you, but then allow yourself to leave that door open to the future, you don’t have to be there 20 years long or even more!It is not for a lifetime that you are choosing this house but for a period. And maybe later you will feel the wish for another house, for something more specific to the time that you will experience. So just allow yourself to be flexible, and if you feel something is calling you, and you feel joy about this call, then go for it! And allow yourself to recieve it, and recieve much more. To recieve the whole adventure that is waiting for you! You will have quite an adventureous life if you allow yourself  to go for it! To leave behind all those familiar doubts, that amy come from your family but also from your owns past patterns. Say: YES! Dare to be this adventureous soul, yes dare to go for your dreams, and allow money, allow gifts, allow joys to come to your life, the way you just started to do, right now.
Thank You for this question and thank You for the others as well.
I wish you a wonderful advent this year, a gentle sweet time with Your own Self, with Your own divine, your own love within and also with your dear ones around you. Celebrate this life and know that there is much more to come! With each day, with each breath. And I am with You in each breath, that you take for yourself.
I am ISIS. The divine, the celebration, the love of All that is. Thank You.